I am A Diet Dr Pepper Girlie

In high school my preferred cafeteria snack was a warm cookie and a diet Dr. Pepper. I would bring them to class with me after lunch and just enjoy.

This was before the health anxiety started to take over. I didn't touch soda for 5 years at some point. Today I was stressed. I convinced myself I was having a heart attack on the way to work. After my medication and smelling lavender with deep breaths I felt a bit better.

I've been craving a diet Dr. Pepper recently. I wanted to buy one the other day but all the store had was Coke :(

So on my 15 minute break today I went to the store and bought a diet Dr. Pepper.  I cannot let my anxiety win, I want one so I get one. I will not worry about aspartame. I will not freak out that this 1 soda will give me incurable stomach cancer. I'm drinking it and it's better than I remember.

Today I am collecting the energy I had at 15. I am calling on my past self to calm anxiety today. I cannot worry a single snack will kill me when I am in a vehicle almost every day.  

I had to break my brain. It wanted to sit in anxiety about my health. So I gave it more to stress about - and a diet Dr. Pepper puts it all into perspective again. 

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